Almost one year ago, I met my son for the first time. It’s so wild to think that it’s only been one year, because it feels like I’ve known him my whole life. But that day, while I was waiting to meet him, I had so many questions swirling in my head…
What would he look like?
What would be his favorite food?
Would he think his Dad is funny?
Would he like Drake?
Would he like my cooking?
But also (and a big also), would I truly be happy being a mom?
A year later, I almost know all the answers…he’s cute as hell, loves bananas and almond butter, prefers Take Care over Nothing Was The Same, thinks his Dad is hilarious, and likes my cooking but really LOVES the bananas and almond butter.
That last question is a big one. And the answer to that one is that I love it.
Which is still crazy to think, because there was a point in my life (not very long ago) that I wasn’t entirely sure I wanted to be a mom. It scared me. It made me nervous about how it would affect my work, my relationships, and myself. I talked about this on the Well / Aware podcast this week. Lindsay Mueller (the host) and I got pretty deep on the topic of motherhood, not wanting to be pregnant, and how it’s also really cool to not have kids either (don’t let people tell you otherwise). And the tears got pretty real when I talked about how special Sid is to me. We also talk about wavy hair and sugar, if babies aren’t your thing.
You can listen to the episode here.
P.S. Happy Birthday Sid!!!